Iris
And Id give up forever to touch you
cause I know that you feel me somehow
Youre the closest to heaven that ill
Ever be
And I dont want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later its over
I just dont want to miss you tonight
And I dont want the world to see me
cause I dont think that theyd
Understand
When everythings made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you cant fight the tears that aint
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know youre alive
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
'squiggle' in an impossibly square slot
Random...everything about my life is so bloody random. Why am I doing the things I am doing...what,you ask?...well, lets start off with engineering...after planning for two whole years to be an architect...and my entire life before that to be a writer...what twist of fate...what fated twist in my life's uncharted winding...(holding out promises of some obscure destiny...just around the next corner...jusht outta sight)...road led me to engineering...pretty simple and veeeeeeeery cliched...my mom and my mom's younger sister and my uncles and their cousins and my neighbor's friend's dog's owner's grandmother's sister's son's wife's shrink thought it would be a better option(considering the 'impractical' nature of my ambitions) for me to keep my options open...So,here I am now with my 'open options' being a 'clueless about my future' student of ....tadaaaa.....computer science...its not bad...the subject for the sake of itself is worth studying...That freaks me out too...because finally any job well-done is rewarding...BUT BUT BUT I dont want to settle for just that...No one does...to able to do what you really really want to do...is that too much to ask for...what if I make those stupid compromises again...Nobody actually comes out and says 'do this!you have to!'...but its always there unsaid,but communicated with cruelly precise eloquence...'you dont really know what you want to do...and it would be sooo ungrateful of you to do what you're saying you're going to do...I wont stop you...but why don't you try what I'm asking you to do...I have your entire life charted out in my head already...'...the works...topped with that angelic victimsed smile...you can...you may...but you'd be heartless if you did.STOP manipulating me...that's all I want to say...stop using the fact that I want to live up to your expectations...that I want to make you happy AGAINST me!!!Don't you see...this way...all I can be is mediocre...not bad enough at whatever it is I do to HAVE TO stop...and not good enough to be happy...just because I can dosent necessarily mean I WANT TO...
To accept the consequences of my actions is possible ONLY if the decision to take those actions is 'mine'!
To live life on my terms is all I ask...is that too much???
To accept the consequences of my actions is possible ONLY if the decision to take those actions is 'mine'!
To live life on my terms is all I ask...is that too much???
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Black mood...reloaded
Friday, March 10, 2006
black mood...
...have you ever felt, like a silent spectator to everything happening around you...wishing you could close your eyes...wishing you could block out parts of your perception, like editing in films...but watched on helplessly because...providence is a limited luxury. Have you ever watched someone take your hand, smile at you...lovingly, and walk you to your end...(and jumped...because they wanted you to?) Have you ever heard a song and wished you were the music in it? Read a poem and wished you were just one single verse? Have you ever looked at the sky on clear april nights and wished you could hold the entire expanse of it in the palm of your hand? Did you ever swim in the ocean and wish you could be the turbulence in it's waves...or watched a bird and wished you could soar...have you watched a baby sleep...and wished you steal that...that uncomplicated peace...have you stood in sunlight, and wished you could be that warmth. have you ever kissed someone...completely...and wished you could be that feeling...have you ever watched someone die...and wished you could go instead?...or closed your eyes and preferred that darkness to light...have you hated loved wanted craved despised hoped and lost all in one moment?...
...have you been everyone I've ever met?
posted by mustabe_someone at 9:10 AM
black mood...
...have you ever felt, like a silent spectator to everything happening around you...wishing you could close your eyes...wishing you could block out parts of your perception, like editing in films...but watched on helplessly because...providence is a limited luxury. Have you ever watched someone take your hand, smile at you...lovingly, and walk you to your end...(and jumped...because they wanted you to?) Have you ever heard a song and wished you were the music in it? Read a poem and wished you were just one single verse? Have you ever looked at the sky on clear april nights and wished you could hold the entire expanse of it in the palm of your hand? Did you ever swim in the ocean and wish you could be the turbulence in it's waves...or watched a bird and wished you could soar...have you watched a baby sleep...and wished you steal that...that uncomplicated peace...have you stood in sunlight, and wished you could be that warmth. have you ever kissed someone...completely...and wished you could be that feeling...have you ever watched someone die...and wished you could go instead?...or closed your eyes and preferred that darkness to light...have you hated loved wanted craved despised hoped and lost all in one moment?...
...have you been everyone I've ever met?
posted by mustabe_someone at 9:10 AM
PiNk!!!
pink!
pink is my new obsession
pink is not even a question
pink on the lips of your lover
coz PINK is the love you discover
PINK is gets me high as a kite
PINK its like red but not quite
and I think everything is going to be
alright no matter
What we do to-niiiiiiiiite
PINK is my favourite crayon
PINK as the sheets that we lay on
....yeah...rani ki kahani was staged yesterday...full happy coming!yippee happening!(maybe goin a lil kapooot...but who the hell cares...if goin kapoot feels like this!!!)...lights wow...sound wow...everything...full happy coming...so much happy comong...sentences disjointed happening...and scripting 'indian fairytale'...so fullto jooooy...yippeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(p.s:god bless 'an indian fairytale')
Monday, May 29, 2006
pink is my new obsession
pink is not even a question
pink on the lips of your lover
coz PINK is the love you discover
PINK is gets me high as a kite
PINK its like red but not quite
and I think everything is going to be
alright no matter
What we do to-niiiiiiiiite
PINK is my favourite crayon
PINK as the sheets that we lay on
....yeah...rani ki kahani was staged yesterday...full happy coming!yippee happening!(maybe goin a lil kapooot...but who the hell cares...if goin kapoot feels like this!!!)...lights wow...sound wow...everything...full happy coming...so much happy comong...sentences disjointed happening...and scripting 'indian fairytale'...so fullto jooooy...yippeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(p.s:god bless 'an indian fairytale')
Monday, May 29, 2006
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